Ayllx Kalen's Blog (16)

In November I'll be 2 years 100% Raw vegan~ :)  And 1 year HC raw vegan. I'm actually pretty excited for that.

But I'm still struggling with weight.  I'm curious if there's anything to help bring the fat down. If anything, in the past year I've gained 20 pounds.  It's pretty aggravating to me.  I can't shake the weight! I've been trying for months and months to lose it!

So far I'm doing the elyptical for 40-50 minutes a day.  Today I'm gonna jog first on the treadmill,…

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I went from 109, to 115, to now 124 lbs. I've been doing 100% 80/10/10!

Would 2,000 calories not be enough or something?  Drink more water?  I drink 3 liters a day.

But I refuse to give up just because of that... the mentality its given me is worth it.  But the weight is frustrating!  I'm making a goal to exercise a lot more over the summer and trying to get fit!  Lifting weights and running for 20 minutes everyday, and 10 in the morning.  +30 minutes of a cardio machine at the…

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I was at lunch, at school, and my friend looks at me and tells me his doctor friend says I should be dead by now, especially doing this to myself as I'm growing.  

A year and a half and I feel better than ever in my life!

I told him about raw athletes, like Harley Johnstone, and how there are vegan bodybuilders, and even raw vegans with some great muscle!  Would not believe it.  Refused to.  Told me that's impossible, and if it where possible, you'd "have to eat, like, 80,000…

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I've been totally raw sense November last year, and before a whole year before that was hcrv with some rice and beans.

In the whole year being raw I noticabley gained 30 pounds. I've only lose 5 i n the past, but even though I'm excersizing and getting a lot of fruits and vegg, I can't lose weight! Its so frustrating.

My excersize is at the gym (I'm not allowed out side) doing the cross ramp for 40 minutes (which is like high knee jogging) and 20 minutes on the bicycle. Do I need to… Continue

Tomorrow, we're going to get the keys to our piece of land we bought to garden in.

We're gonna grow all organic foods, even the soils gonna be all organic!  Makes me happy.  We're trying for cauliflower, too, which is one of my favorites.  And looking into a small banana bush!

We're still trying to think of other things to put in.  So far we got carrots, cauliflower, and a few bulb flowers (One of them kind of remind me of dancing fairies or something... really cool!).  We…

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Working out for an hour everyday (jogging)...   But weight won't budge (I'm using messuring tapes, actually).  Dang.  I'm slowly becoming more ok with my weight, but I'd still like to lose a little more fat.  

I'm starting to cycle, too.  Sadly I only can use gym machines, my parents won't even let me in the front yard... soo...

But hey, gym member ships all good.  Machines are fun.  :)  I'm happy.

What else can I do to get fit?  4 months, no progress after going…

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Happy Valentines day!  I didn't have a date, so me and a friend paired up just for fun.  I got a bracelet from her made of threads, I made her one out of soda-pop tabs.  (I don't drink it, but my family has always been drinking bunches... you should see the fridge.)



And I had a wonderful time in PE "playing" bacchi with my friends.…

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Got my mom to go raw vegan!  She starts Monday.  She says she's gonna start either fully or 80% raw.      I'm getting her to join 30BAD, as well.  We aren't close at all  (I mean REALLY)... so hopefully we'll get a little closer through the experience, she needs a lot of help, she says!  

The reason my mother, a 100%  S.A.D. eater is joining... is a bet.  She bet her friends (they all cashed out 100 dollars) who could lose the most weight in 3 months.  So, 3 months raw, mum!  Ah, I…

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For 2 day I thought I was beginning to get dehydrated. I tried drinking more and more water... and kept wondering what was going on.  It was just that my throat felt funny!  Then it suddenly hit me.

My seasonal cold.  the same one every year, basically.  This year I didn't lose my voice, though.

I didn't realize it because I was just still so happy, and felt like running and riding my bike everyday!  Excited as ever!  So it was hard for me to sit down so I could rest my cold...…

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I was so stressed out today.  For one thing, I woke up at 3 AM and couldn't go back to sleep (Though, I wake up at 5AM everyday so its not as bad as you'd think) due to continues nightmares and very, very odd dreams recently beginning every night.  

And recently, body image has been really bugging me.  I learned I had gained 5 pounds, lately, too.  Its seriously killing me.  I was just ok with it recently, and decided "Hey, you know what?  I'm ok!  Who cares?"  And then today...…

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Things are going pretty well.

Haven't felt and drug cravings in the past few days, and haven't felt cooked food cravings sense around the end of November.   

I'm feeling weight issues again.  Lately weights been on my mind so much.  Constantly thinking about it...  so uncomfortable.  It stresses me out... but I manage, because no one can just snap there fingers and have a set of 10 pack abs.  Or... even a 10 pack, I believe.

My parents and I's communication is not…

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Back from, Tahoe!  Hoorah for internet.  (Although we went to Starbucks to sit outside and get free wifi once.  I'm sure I looked a little too excited to get an email.)

I feel wonderful.  I'm more so over my jacket need (sort of... still feel a bit like I would need it. )

I have more confidence.  :)  Went out in public a lot with out my hair brushed or anything.  (I had no choice; forgot my brush, straightner, etc) I looked fine, I finally thought.  But still kind of was bugged…

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I felt quit the anxiety today about my jacket being off in Tahoe (Aside out side mostly... snows too cold!).  Still somewhat do, but I'm getting over it.  Its not like my friend would send me home over my weight.  That'd be silly.   And as for what I'm  seeing at the moment... all the mirrors in the cabin are like fun house mirrors!  So distorted and bendy!  Can't rely on mirrors at this house, but for the few days, maybe that'd be good for me.

And all the…

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I really need to.  So I started yesterday.

First stop!  Hair cut.  I think I'm done seeing the world through a curtain.  I'm not so scared anymore of eye contact.  Especially with my friends, who I was with yesterday. I guess I'll be changing my profile pic as soon as I get back from Tahoe in a few days.  ;)

Second, take than dang jacket off.  No more hiding.  Honestly- why am I hiding from myself?  I certainly know how I look, and if any one else's about me mattered, they have…

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A year ago now,  I was obsessed with fasting, eating 500 cals a day, had extreme social anxiety (which was getting worse, I was afraid to look people in the eyes!  Hence the hair cut).  I was depressed, wanted life to be over, and was doing a lot of drugs (my brother used to be a HUGE drug dealer before we moved from the state vermont.  He's not legally allowed to be back there again.), mostly weed and ecstasy, and didn't have any real friends, but one that was 2 towns…

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Disney land!  I didn't want to go, and still wasn't too for it while I was there (I'm not a theme park kind of person), but it did kind of make me look at things differently.

For food, my parents still wanted to support me in raw the best they could, so for three days they got me:

30 bananas

2lbs oranges

3 boxes dates (not huge ones, they hold around 30 dates... my breakfast somedays ;) )

 4 pure coconut waters

8 crisp apples

 14 oranges

2 boxes black…

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