Why do I keep flip flopping?!

Guys, I'm having a hard, hard time...I keep flip flopping between being raw and wanting cooked food. I know that this is the lifestyle for me but I just cant seem to stick with it. I did 100% a few months ago for about 2 weeks and felt fantastic. Then I ended up second guessing myself because of my family and ended up eating cooked food. After that I just couldnt seem to get back on. I started to feel sick every time I'd start eating raw again so I just gave up trying to do 100%. After that I did 1 fruit meal a day and that worked well. i got really inspired so went a hundred percent again for a week but the circumstances were ones that made it hard to stick to because I have been traveling. Today I tried to start my day raw again but was feeling really out of balance and started thinking that maybe this lifestyle is just not right for me. So I ate cooked and now I want to be raw again! So every time I am raw I feel like its not right, but every time I stop being raw and eat cooked food I realize that I really want to be raw. This is so frustrating to me! I think this is all in my head because everytime I try to commit myself to it I feel like I cant do it. My question is first of all, can you please offer some advice and some help here because I feel very discouraged. My intentions are pure. I know that this is right for me. Why is it so hard? I dont come from a SAD background. I come from a very "healthy" lifestyle. What gives? Is cooked food that addictive? I know we dont condone doing this gradually but should I just continue my one fruit meal a day for a while and just see where that takes me? Thanks so much for any help you can give me. I love the support here and I hope that I can do this!