Recovering Anorexics/bulimics. Please read. Feel free to talk about your own experiences! UPDATED!

Hello everyone,  I started 811 100% 10 months ago ( roughly). & even then I was under eating for the first few months without knowing it (before I found 30bad) I was vegetarian for 4 years and vegan for 4 years before I went back to the SAD diet and became bulimic (throwing up anywhere from 5-12 times a day) aswell as anorexic. I can't remember how I stumbled into the world of eating disorders, but I fell and I fell HARD. I spent 4 years enduring this hell & my health suffered so greatly for it.

  A list of my past health history:

 born 2 pounds 12 ounces 3 months premature.

 severe digestive issues my ENTIRE life.

IBS, UC, mild CROHNS, CONSTIPATION. 

I abused sleeping pills + pain meeds severely for years.

 I abused natural laxatives severally for years

 I drank up to 14 cups of coffee a day. 

I'd go DAYS without sleep.

 I'd live on JUNK FOOD for months on end.

Sometimes not consuming vegetables or fruit for weeks.

 I was SEVERELY DEHYDRATED.

 I LIVED on SALT.

 I had a SUPER HIGH FAT diet.

 I would BINGE on every food under the sun & then THROW it all back up.

 I went through MONTHS of EXTREME calorie restricting.  

I have been DIETING since I was in GRADE 3. 

My weight would YOYO 20-35 pounds monthly. 

I LIVED on SPLENDA DIET DRINKS ASPARTAME & gum & ENERGY DRINKS.

 I FASTED ALOT.  

Severe depression/anxiety 

Leaky Gut & food intolerances 

Severe receding gums.
Heartburn.
CONSTANT stomach aches.
SEVERE BLOATING.
NO ENERGY without stimulants.
EXERCISE abuse.
Undiagnosed B-12 deficiency

   When I began my journey into raw foods I was 87 pounds. At this time I was eating over 3000 calories a day of typical SAD foods (ice-cream, chocolate, pounds of honey). I had not binged/threw up, nor restricted my calories for a year prior to this. I wanted so bad to get to a normal weight and be healthy. My body was not absorbing ANY nutrients & I was following a "doctors" diet to put on weight quick. ( junk food, high fat, loaded with animal products) I even went back to eating meat during this time.  I spent 8 months eating everything in site and rapidly losing weight. (my stomach looked about 8 months pregnant though, I was so severely bloated) My hair was falling out in massive clumps and I was sick ( I had no energy, was constipated, couldn't focus, emotionally unstable). It seemed as if my body was rejecting food, everything in fact gave me horrible stomach aches (even fruit). I was an emotional mess and the doctors did every test known to man, yet nothing showed up as abnormal. They gave up & just sent me home. I gave up too & if it weren't for my family, I wouldn't be here today.   One day a thought crossed my mind to only eat fruit for a day, so I did. It was awful. My system was so screwed up that it couldn't handle digesting the fruit, as it was running into all the other fat/crap stored in my body. After that I spent a few weeks going back and fourth from cooked crap to fruit. Everything raw tasted awful, I couldn't go near vegetables. I didn't know how to pick properly ripe fruit, and was not following food combining. I felt just as crappy eating raw as I did normally eating SAD.   It was a super tough transition for me, I got even sicker, lost more weight and felt way worse then before. By week two I was covered in what appeared to be cellulite (I'd never had a tiny bit before). I was terrified, bloated to heck and back, rapidly ganging and losing weight, moody, had intense cravings for cooked food, and losing my hair even worse then before. To top it off my face broke out something awful, I couldn't sleep and had no energy. This went on for 1.5 months.  However I knew what I was doing was somehow "right". I'm not going to lie, I almost went back to the SAD life more then once in my first month. But a little voice in the back of my head kept telling me to keep going and push through all this. Well, I'm glad I did. My detoxing still is in progress even after 8 months. & given my health history I don't expect it to end anytime soon.

  What I've experienced so far after being HCRV FOR 10 MONTHS….

 My skin is CLEAR 

My hormones have balanced out & I'm starting to get my PERIOD regularly ( I had not had it for the last 5 years).
My sex drive is through the roof! 

I have ALOT more ENERGY then I've ever had in years.

 I SLEEP soundly

 My depression/ anxiety is almost GONE

 I rarely get STOMACH aches unless I don't follow food combining.

 I've healed ALOT of my food ALLERGIES. Except nightshades & citrus

 Mentally I'm a lot more ALERT

 I've gained and maintained a healthy weight

 My hair is growing super think & strong. 

My gums are growing back.

 My nails are strong. 

My digestion is near AMAZING, 

I'm more out going and confident, 

I can work out without "sups"

 I no longer crave cooked food

 My taste buds are so sensitive & in tune to new flavors

 I haven't gotten sick ( no colds, flu etc) even though I'm exposed to sick people everyday

 My cellulite is gone almost 100% 

My fitness has increased swell as my stamina

 I have a new lease of life, diet and health

 I have had no desire to go back to my eating disorder ways.

 I can eat INSANE amounts

 I can DRINK insane amounts

 I only crave overt fats when I'm undercarbed
NO HEARTBURN!
My body feels at peace ( I used to feel very out of it & close to death).

  I'm a girl. I'm 20. I'm 5'6.  I'm 134 pounds. I have stopped gaining weight ( so far) & notice my body fat percentage going down as I'm exercising more & more.
I eat 3000-7000 calories a day.

  Since starting the 811 diet I've gained 47 pounds. does it bother me? No, not in the least. I spent YEARS abusing, starving, beating up my poor body. The damage I did took YEARS to build up. It will take YEARS to undo it. But sticking to the 80-10-10 diet 100% and getting enough exercise etc is the ONLY thing that will get me back to a healthy fit body. It's a LIFESTYLE , not a "quick" fix.   I did not come to 30bad for a quick fix ( anyone who does will be disappointed and isn;'t ready to take charge and change their entire life in my opinion!), or simply to lose weight ( or to find a diet that could help me maintain an anorexic weight if I restricted my cals), nor did I expect that being a LFRV would FIX EVERYTHING. It's a diet people, not a miracle. You're entire health is not composed of DIET & DIET alone. True it plays a huge part, but it's not EVERYTHING.

Look at every LONG TERM fruity.

  Are they over weight?

  Do they have chronic health complaints?

  Are they still "detoxing" ( not healing, that's different) after years and years?  

The answer is NO.   

So if you've come to 30bad and have an eating disordered past ( even unintentionally) it AIN'T GONNA BE EASY. You're going to suffer for the first few weeks/months. you're going to gain weight ( providing you eat enough) & you're going to detox. But you know what?  stay strong. stay inspired. love yourself enough to give 811 a chance for a year +.   If you don't do 811 100% you won't FEEL 100%  IT'S WORTH IT. & anyone who tells you otherwise, isn't worth your time!

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Permalink Reply by ♥FruitLover♥ on October 12, 2010 at 12:17am

I am just a about 2 weeks into this lifestyle, and I am still recovering. My ED (anorexia with a small past of bulimia) was brought on by my family going into a major downfall (divorce), abuse, and me just loosing control of my life. This lifestyle makes it easier simply because I still feel in control of my food. I plan everything I eat. I still have tendencies to eat some stuff not good for me (hummus and pita), but that is for various reasons. I came from a diet where I ate no more than 150 calories in a day. Transitioning to this diet has been very hard on my body, but it has been worth it. Two weeks in and I can already feel the results. Clearer skin, stretch marks from my childhood growth spurts are gone, amazing amounts of energy, my insomnia-though still bad-has gotten better, more self-confidence, etc. etc. etc. This lifestyle really is the way to go for anyone wanting to recover from ana/mia.

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Permalink Reply by melissa jackson on November 7, 2010 at 12:30pm

Good to hear! You're doing great:)

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Permalink Reply by HealthySkinnyBeautiful-TashaLee on October 15, 2010 at 1:54pm

hi melissa and all,
thanks so much for sharing. i am a recovered (not cured) exercise bulimic/compulsive overeater. for years and years i stuffed myself to sickness, tried in vain to exercise off the calories, and got sicker and sicker and more and more hopeless. i knew that what i was doing was killing me physically, emotionally, spiritually...many times i just felt so hopeless because as much as i desperately wanted to, i just couldn't stop doing this thing that was killing me, and i was ready to end my life just to get out of the hopeless cycle.
fast forward 5 or so years...i started desperately looking for a solution...trying anything anyone told me would work to stop this madness. i went from "solution" to "solution" and what seemed to work for other people did not work for me. i would vow at the end of a binge that this was going to be the absolute last time; i would never do this again; starting tomorrow i was going to "not eat compulsively". but i could not keep my solemn vows! i would invariably start eating compulsively again...even as i eliminated what i thought were problem foods...and then got to where i was bingeing on carrots! it was definitely not a hunger thing. i knew something was desperately wrong.
fast forward to three years ago...someone who "got me", who understood my struggle, answered the phone when i reached out in desperation and asked her if she could tell me what to do to recover...she shared her story and i could totally relate. she told me she had recovered and lived a free life today, and did i want what she had? ohmygosh, yes! i was willing to try anything! amazingly, this time, she shared what she did and gave me simple instructions to follow. i did that and i stay recovered as i keep doing it every day and my life today is FREE! it is amazing!
two and a half years ago i had to start learning how to NOURISH my body. never had to do that before; never had room to put anything else into it after all the crap i shoved down my throat! so someone told me about raw foods and i felt like this was the path God was leading me down to nourish my body. i have tried lots of things on the journey of raw foods, and finally, on 80-10-10, i feel like i have found home. like this is where i am to be the rest of my life.
i have so much to learn, and even though i have been trying to do 80-10-10 since reading it a year ago, i still feel like a huge beginner. i am just starting to read stuff on this website and i feel so blessed to not be alone! but i just want to offer to anyone out there that is struggling with TWO things at once- 1-compulsive eating/bulimia/starving oneself and 2- nourishing your body...well, i would be honored to share what that woman shared with me 3 years ago.
i have seen that yes, my body does react physically to food or lack of fruit calories or whatever and if i don't have it, it can cause cravings and alter my mood and such. but that is different entirely from the feeling of someone holding a knife to my throat, forcing me to eat, feeling like there is no other solution for me (even though i ended up sick on the couch- not much of a solution!).
i could never differentiate between the two in the past. now that i have recovered from compulsive eating/exercise bulimia, i can very clearly identify them for what they are worth.
anyway, just wanted to throw that out there and i would be sooo happy if i could help anyone the way i have been helped. i no longer want to kill myself. i am so blessed to be alive and just live to love God and love others! please send me a message if i can help you in any way! (like i said, i have lots to learn and experience with the 80-10-10 thing so can't really help with that, but with the recovering from compulsive eating/bulimia thing i do have a lot to share!) :)

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Permalink Reply by Courtney Yancey on October 27, 2010 at 10:00am

heyycourtneyy@yahoo.com

please send me an e-mail. i would love to hear more

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Permalink Reply by luba on December 10, 2010 at 11:56pm

and me too please :))

lubov23@mail.ru

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Permalink Reply by Anastasia/Champagne Mango on December 11, 2010 at 6:10am

Myself as well. Ubiquitous@ymail.com

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Permalink Reply by hellcat on December 11, 2010 at 8:55am

And me! hellicat007@yahoo.com.au

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Permalink Reply by melissa jackson on January 1, 2011 at 12:43pm

Thanks so much Tasha for sharing everything! It's great to hear eveyones stories and get support for those living this wonderful lifestyle.

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Permalink Reply by Simon on October 17, 2010 at 4:56am

I suffered from anorexia for quite a long time, it kind of took my life from me, I like to think of myself as recovered now since I am eating 3000 - 8000 calories a day instead of 200, I still have strong desires to fast though which I used to do 3 - 4 days a week although I am holding up strong against these self destructive thoughts.

I usually don't talk about this but you have given me the courage to come out :)

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Permalink Reply by Courtney Yancey on October 27, 2010 at 9:56am

How did your body react to the 3k-8k calorie attolment for the day? I'm not afraid of WEIGHT GAIN but I'm TERRIFIED of how my body may change.

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Permalink Reply by melissa jackson on November 7, 2010 at 12:38pm

Simon,

thanks so much for sharing too, it's really important to talk about things.

The desire to fast will go away in time. And it takes a long time to recover from an eating disordered past, so don't expect everything to fall into place right away. There will still be days when old patterns die hard and you fall back into past thoughts and such but it doesn't last long.

You're doing wonderful so far,

Melissa:)

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Permalink Reply by Lucky Lu on October 21, 2010 at 1:53pm

Thanks!! I need help!! It is getting colder, and I started to eat some cooked foods (organic beans and flax crackers)....and my belly is in massive PAIN!! I also look pregnant!! I hate feeling this way.

So, how to stay warm?? I have only been raw for 4 months, and I get chilly very easily. I need help now that winter is approaching here in the States.