Please help, I look and feel ill after failing at banana island :(

A couple of weeks ago, I was all hyped up as I was going to banana Island :)Really, really looking foward to this for a long time as i have suffered with digestive issues for over 5yrs, even though I was vegan, no alcohol and thought I was on a good diet until I found 811!

I have been building up to banana island  by increasing bananas over the past couple of months and felt ready to go for as long as I felt I could at the beginning of may.

The first week was good, at the end of the week I did have some pineapple, salad and avocado, however, I was fully raw and organic. The 2nd week I just felt like s***, I ate a jacket potato, I felt felt really deprived and ending up eating bread and soup on several occasions.

I am now in what would of been week 4, feeling terrible that my mission failed miserably, and really I don't know why. I don't know why I became over whelmed with with deprived, I know is sounds stuipd, I know it is stupid!!, but once its in my head it seems to have hold of me and my thoughts turn to s*** food. (although before 811, it would of been worse s*** food!)

Is there an logical reasons for this? Could it be I am lacking in something? I was really surprised at the feelings as I have wanted to do this and working towards eating just banana. Freelea and everyone else I have come across doing mono island say how great it is, however, mine just went to s***, and I look ill.

Should I try banana island again with a green juice?

I feel and look like s***, I can not tell my family why as they don't agree with 811 and don't even attempt to understand. I have been veggie for 20yrs, Vegan 15yrs, I don't drink alcohol, stopped drinking caffeine 3 years ago went more raw 1 year ago and found 811 7 months ago, so even though Ive messed up banana island with some bread soup and a jacket potatoes, is that cause for me looking like s***, with dark heavy eyes? I know my digestion is bad which is why I was so looking forward to the island.

I feel right now I am a really bad advert for someone attempting this lifestyle and I know its the right thing to do, I do eat plenty of fruit and drink water.

Sorry for the MASSIVE!  message, but I really look ill!!!!!