I was successful and loved this lifestyle for 2 weeks before my friends wedding. I ate religiously 2500 cal, felt great and started to notice my body getting smaller. But of course my logic said "it's a wedding, you can have 1 day break, nice restaurant food, alcohol etc" and then guess what...... I haven't been able to get myself back on the wagon again...... ok I started for 3 days again then lost it...... WHY !
What's wrong with me...... I know this is the best way to eat, but do you think I can get started again?! No.... and I'm frustrated with myself......
I want to feel great and look great like so many of you do. How do I stop hurting my body by eating absolute rubbish? And it only makes it worse when i know its bad for me......
ARGHHHHH.... can you feel my frustration ?
Maybe that's part of the problem - I don't believe in myself.
But when the wedding day/night happened I just wanted to take advantage of the "nice" restaurant meal and alcohol, which makes me relax more and "let my hair down".... I guess 2 weeks wasn't enough of a start to keep me locked on.....
I still see eating as such a fun, social thing to do and I'm scared of losing that fun/good times feel if I eat differently to everyone else. And it's such an effort (or it feels like it now) to say to the restaurant "can you make me a salad" or "can you whip me up something special that's raw".... I guess part of me just wants to be like everyone else - it DOES take effort to be different, and when you're feeling tired/frumpy/lethargic the last thing you want to do is stand up for something you believe in...... eventho I know that's exactly what I need......
I guess I mainly feel like I'll lose the "good times" with family and friends if I'm different and eating my own thing. I guess I'm scared to not fit in ???????
btw cravings were not a problem for me at all during my 2 weeks, the hardest part was eating eating eating to make it to 2500 cal
Well, you really are one COOL chick! Thank you so much for your thoughts. It just goes to show how much your (my) attitude plays a huge part in your life. While I worry about being different, you're happy to be different.
Different is great, that's what I have to remind myself. Different is fine.
You see, I'm so different as it is - I'm a mother who homeschools her 10yo son, in a world that doesn't greatly accept homeschool. And then, I'm one of Jehovah's Witnesses, in a world that often thinks Jehovah's Witnesses are a bit "out there"..... so adding Raw Vegan to the mix just makes me even more "different"..... and I have a mum who doesn't accept either homeschool or Jehovah's Witnesses (although she doesn't mind the whole raw diet idea)..... I think she has scared me - I mean who doesn't want to be accepted by their mums :-)
But I love your attitude and your freedom to be who you want to be, in this crazy mixed up world of ours! Cherish who you are. I admire you