I am trying to be 100% raw and I am happy I love this diet and my panic attacks and breathing patterns is much more relaxed when I eat any cooked food , salted or sugary I instantly become nerves and panicky ..... I never thought of this !!
Any way on the other hand when I am angry ( I don't know how to explain this ) I am a vary lonely person no one think like me or act like me and they make me feel down all of the time .. I can't even talk to some one near about my problem with out him or her thinking that I am talking about them or that they would talk down to me if I told them that that guy keeps looking at me do you know him ? there answer would be ( why you are not that pretty or who do u think you are ,no he is not ) stuff like that not encouraging loving ppl ... I feel all alone that no one will support me and they never did before I want to talk simple conversation is so hard to do ...... my husband makes funny remarks or he will not listen and will only node his head , my brothers the same my sisters ahh the same they will try to get me down all the time .....
I don't have friends because they are jealous just lkie my sisters I can't even tell you why I hate to brag I fear talking about myself because I fear that ppl would be like my sister thinks that I brag .....
I never thought of sharing this would you ...I wanted this community to be my happy time community ... but last week I had this scary suicidal thoughts for the second time in 6 months it was sooo strong that I kept picturing myself squeezing my neck till death I tried to switch my thought but I couldn't all night crying and hitting my head ... I prayed but the thought kept coming I kept on saying God forgive me till I slept and in the next day I was normal again ....
so any way again being sad and alone made me lately to get back to junk food because I was soo sad that they eat what they want and enjoy there life why not meeee after two days I get back to my lovely fruits ... what can I do to not give in to junk food when I am crazy ?
also make use of NVC if you have negative feelings you can decipher them (find the unmet need) then realize the strategies/tactics you have taken or could take to transform it positive/fulfilled/satisfied. https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150302571536848.341606....
stay grounded on rational stuffs and stay away from mystics would be other advise and stay extra carbed up ;)
These links are really good. Thankyou for sharing :)
hey feel free to share your feelings with me anytime, just send me an email and I can listen.... I know how hard depression can be, i've been fighting it since I was at least 12 but it wasn't recognised until much later... I have the exact same feelings as you, scared of being judged or people not understanding and making simple conversations... heck i'm terrible at it (though i seem to be better at expressing myself online than in real life).. I always feel awkward around people because I think they are disinterested in me.. but deep down, I know thats not true.
But really calling yourself crazy isn't helpful, you're the least from it. All you have is normal feelings that everyone has, but just in a more extreme case... it's not crazy to be human. Junk food, you know, is not the answer.. the more you commit to this, the happier you will become... believe in yourself! I've been here only a few months, but I can see a change, even though I still eat cooked grains and veg.
Remember, you can message me anytime, make it the longest email ever! I don't care, I promise to read it... it's better to get your feelings out then keep them boxed up =)
Reading your post its like I could have written it myself I can relate so much. For myself I know, this lifestyle is the only way I can move past this. And possibly some communication counseling. I have had major social anxiety with bouts of depression and self harm for as long as I can remember. Sometimes It feels like I am the only person feeling these things and think I must be brain damaged or something. And my family has always acted strange towards me which makes me feel crazy.
I also have had nights where I have been up at night crying, hitting myself in the face and just imagining killing myself. Feeling so much hatred towards myself and praying for it to stop. Then I can wake up the next day and feel normal again. And it is really hard to talk about when I feel normal again like I dont want to face it. But I now this is my big motivation for this lifestyle. (Already vegan).
Filling up on dateorade really helps. You could aim for 3 a day as your staple. We have also been eating canned fruit when we get cravings (I know not ideal but it is breaking our chocolate/chips addiction).
Also not sure how to explain exactly but I think maybe this is a growth opportunity. Harmony and growth out of chaos. I believe we will be better for it in the end. I am grateful in a way it has made me search for things. And it is good to be sensitive but maybe eating the wrong diet and being in an unnatural and crazy society has caused an imbalance/hyper sensitivity.
Give yourself some b12 shots following the recommending dosing. Lots of depressed people found em effective. Take care of your sleep water sugar on a daily basis too. Early nights are KEY.
Absolutely. I completely got my life back!
How are you doing Flora?
Vit B12 shots sound like a good idea, I think I will try them to. Have you also thought about vit D? I have been a bit down the past few weeks and I haven't been eating greens so that could be a factor to. I have heard that the omega 3s in greens are good for mental health.
Also I think it is really important to stay away from people who are not loving, supportive and respectful. Just put some distance between yourself and these people. Try to move on from them emotionally so that they cannot hurt you anymore. I have found it helpful to make up a rule of seeing certain people no more then once a week or fortnight and some only when I cannot avoid them. Go to local vegan meet ups, exercise, be creative, immerse yourself in hobbies. Spend time with animals, get a pet from spca, do some volunteer work with animals. Grow a vege garden, very therapeutic. Start a journal, sit in nature and draw and write out your feelings, or meditate.
THanks to all of you ... Your posts helped me a lot at that time but I was so depressed to be here and a little ashamed .. I am better now
No need to feel ashamed. You came here because you wanted help and everyone is willing to help you. We all have difficulties in life. Never give up! Seek help (like you did) and begin the road to recovery and HAPPINESS! I hope you're well!
not only you who have these feelings . its universal .i t matter what we think. faith and gratitude and calm mind are powerful things. be a light to yourself . believe that beautiful things happen pay attention to what you are thinking and what you feed you mind as well as what you feed your body .. tv news etc